Fuadrazlan

Girls..

2009-12-16T07:53:00.000-08:00

I was listening to Marcell's slow poppish rnb jam named berhenti berharap..sitting outside with my phone,nice ambient,and lastly good tempreture after a bad athma attack;urged me to update my blog..

All of a sudden,i had my school time in mind..its so sad that i had none of my school days' pictures..i neva know untill now bout them since i took them back after AF finished..ive forgotten bout em since then..

Then it made me recall the girls that played sum good roles in the past years'..perhaps they have shaped me being what i am now..
the hottest and the best will always be my luvly n precious Candy..huhuhu..love,thanks for all the moments..GOD bless us for our heart that we're to be togetha till the end..i hope u know wut ur doing now..i know i confused u n all but ur the last person i wud forget..bcuz ure my first true love n u made me realised wut luv is..

2nd goes to Isha..u have teached me an important lesson in life..thanks..i hope ur happy with whom ure with right now..ure a pair very lvely couple..its good seeing dat ure happy..

Tasha will be the 3rd..she has also teached me sum moral values about being in a relationship..she showed me how should the gents treat the ladies right..we didnt last long bcuz i was too selfish n enjoying life at the fullest that i had made her cry..sorry..i was young n stupid..

she is now happily married..i pray for ur success,that ur happy and GOD bless ur family..

The girl that i waited for a quite few years..Dy..i use to be nervous when seeing her..even when we were old enough to take the scene a friendly ones,ii acted diffrntly..we used to switch our rltnshp on n off quite frequantly..shes sumbudy whos living in a fast life now by singing..hopefully shes thinkin bout her future wisely..

Lastly,yana..she has always been in her own class..she was my first crush for sumbudy whose older than me..she is so diffrent than others that she is so matured in dealing things and all..well, its just that sumtimes, she’s a bit all thumbed for her actions..hehe..kinda funny tho..i dun have much to say bout her cuz its hard to get hold of her..but lately, she has been a very good lady..i presume she has got her feet on track and she is moving forward..i pray that she will find her fortune and true happiness for her future…well its kinda early for me to judge Yana cuz we just met a few times..

Well, there are things I wrote made some people angry and discourage them..i am so sorry…I shouldn’t do that..i only write what I felt at that time..so, I am sorry..please let all the things that I have written be sumwhat a history being archived into this blog..i love all of you and this blog is all about love..its all about love and nuthin but love..we're all just human..

So those are the girls that was n still very much in ny mind..this ends up this threat..

Today

2009-12-14T09:17:00.000-08:00

So miracal does happen..and it did happen..but its a miracle..it wont stay long..sadly..i was d happiest guy on earth..but now back to sq 1..darn it!!

Miracle

2009-12-13T00:58:00.000-08:00

Its 1700hours..im hopin for a miracle to happen..im praying for a good weekend closing ceremony..i know just the best thing that can happen to cheer me up..

Next week,i will do it..definitely..Im sorry but its what ive been hoping to do while i still have the time..

Sunday mornin

2009-12-12T12:09:00.000-08:00

11.am..sunday morning..12/12/09..few final moments b4 2009 closes its shutter to every human being/ALLAH's creature..ive had one of the most memorable nite embarking my self-reliance towards my stand and safeguarding my pride..but god bless..insyaALLAH i'll still get d things&things done n in control..i'll update ya'll later cuz im still at lan's place n im heading home soon..salam

pass you by...

2009-12-11T17:00:00.000-08:00

this morninig, soon as i opened up my eyes, i felt like writing..like wut shazlan always said, i never plan to write but here i am,in front of my machine..self expression or wutever that was..i cant really remember..huhu...sorry lan, i didnt get it rite i supposed..huhu..

last nyte was a long ride for me..being defiant and self-captivating human i am, my trip started from work, KLCC, went straight home, Bangsar, Shah Alam (wtf??!!!), Kajang, and home was the finale..ignore the traffic problems on Friday evening that accords violently to the traveling time, i spent bout 4 hours on my bike..well, i was literally on my bike and i didnt get off it cuz there were times that i met people that was on the go and we didnt have that much of stoppage time..yeah..for all that things that i was doing, it came to my mind so many questions that i can't even answer..like, who am i now? the same fuad for the past 3 years? the new fuad?or maybe, the bad stays and the good went away? the contemplating sense is the same..haha..thats what i am pretty much very sure off...

so, had enuff of my own stories, moving on to the latest..soon as i clicked on the mozilla, a song came to my mind..pass you by..dedicated to the husband and wife that i don't really know that much of..that they are in the midst of filing their divorce case..i pray that it won't happen..lets think prior to our actions...pray for the AL-MIGHTY that the 'Arash wont quiver(hopefully im usin the right word) wALLAHhualam..amen..

11/12/09

2009-12-10T20:55:00.000-08:00

Salam all..iys me again..ok i wont promise to update my blog at a frequent pace..empty promises ah..at the mo im havin my lunch with my colleagues from work..ate just a scoop of rice,some potatoes and some meat..on diet actually..targeting for the cleo's most eligeble bachelor..hahaha..

Nuthins up 4me basiccally..work,eat sleep n ride..alone..weekends wit my same old frenz..and thats it..some hilites are not to be disclosed for security,n privacy purposes..ahaha..its pretty much be buggin me..its twitching my sense of rationality but still in the same time,maturity bites me there n then..kinda sickening..

I was askin a fren about life problems..which has got a more severe impact..financial problems or emotion problems..emotion being lotsa reasons..love life,family,lust,etc..sudden silence from him..i responded with my answer..i said "emotions"..i would be able to bare with financial interference..but not emotions..however,the world is witnessing money over happiness..i refuse to argue on that..cuz,money satisfy emotional chaos..u satisfy lust,love n family..genuinity/authenticity does matter but its mind over matters..u think too much,plan too much,ure actually planning to fail..

Its such a hot,complex and very contemplating area..its for u to decide..where you are, matters to the one that loves you..not the one that you love..bcuz,they dun really luv u..

my life and me..

2009-11-11T15:37:00.000-08:00

alhamdulillah, about few days to go, im 7 months in KL back from dublin..about 2 months from now, we're closing the 2009th show and if ALLAH permits, there will be the 2010 show..hmm..how was your 2009 so far lads? ive achieved some and some were left behind..but i still have a couple of months to take care of it..hope its soon enough before the shutter bein wine down..

usually, ill think of somethin before I write but now, im too lazy to work on my brains, i just sit and force myself to write..so, i never knew whats the ending..

suddenly, i thought of somethin.."MUSIC REVIEW"..though im not an expert in this, but still, its worth a try..hehehe..plus, its a personal opinion..so, ive been watchin a couple of video music on Black Music..reggae, RnB and Rap and stuff...so i loved them...latest craze is Ziggi need to tell you this...melody in concept of the 'I gal riddim'..video clip's showing things happenin around amsterdam..nice aint it? missed it alot..to be specific about amsterdam, beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder.....hahhahaha, ziggi, a new guy in this industry, black dutch..good breakthru and found himself a good spot in the market..other songs, not bad..dancehall raggae..bole la..they still cant bit the melodious dub incorporation..heres somethin from ziggi taken from utube..

then I found this other video..new song from michael buble..hmm...nothin much to say thou..typical buble, his kinda songs, his image but with a killarney sign in the start of his new video clip..irish eh!! hahahah...i still remember when buble refreshed the listeners ears with his oldies favs..damn that was a good shot..spot on man..i was lovin it to the max..ecspecially, the old time favourite, my funny valentine..i still dunno who the original singer was..its a brilliant tune man..check it out..but this one is from sting and chris botti....

talkin bout buble's latest single, he's still the same, not much changes, and the music, its fantastic..soothing the ears, a great morning song..ahahahah..so here it is..enjoy...im off to work..rite? so u take care..by the way, havent told u guys about the Melaka ride..let the pics do the talkin k?..enjoy..

last ones eh!

Latest...

2009-11-05T21:06:00.000-08:00

bole tak kalau saya janji skali lagi yang saya nak update blog everyday..to at least come out with a story that straight away make the readers or even viewers, think about it..the rationale of it and whatnot..hehehe..ambitions..thats what i call ambitions..

well, a bit of update bout me..2 jobs landed on me at one time..id say second job landed on my second day..hehehe..its a good feelin bro..as if, ur on cloud 9..both have the potentials of makin me a better and a wiser man..bout one of 'em, I see the opportunity for me bein recognizeable (if there's such a word) yeah..Islamic bank..thats who Im with now..risk management..not bad eh? treasury's Op risk to be specific..hmm...im doin things i love to do..so, end result is good..(Insyaallah) hehehe..
other than that, Im a freelancer in photography now..i do, product, event, corporate, wedding, parties, or whatever...rates lower than the others plus high anticipation for the results to be as good as professionals..InsyaAllah..

aku ada moto skang beb..hehehe..most of you saw the pics of my bike thru FB..bole la..naza blade 250 cc..the best beginners bike..weight, looks and all are OKm but the softiness(if theres any such word)..this saturday, ill be riding to Melaka..Melaka int bike fest..heard the roumur from some frens,that the organizer is tryinna get 800+- bikes to convoi and break the malaysia book of record..ill be goin for that hopefully..kalau lan tak patahkan handle lg la..huhuhu..

Actually this is the 2nd part of the entry..last nyte,i went asleep in d middle of writing this post..hahaha..bole lak..

This morning,came in ontime clocked in was doin my site visit report..later,the managemnt called us out to deliver some findings and presented the bank's aim,mission,vision and some other things..it was good cuz it ended with
Refreshments..hahaha..trust me,you wont get that from multinationals conglemerate firms..takpela..motivational purposes..alhamdulillah..kenyang perot..ok la,till the next entry..

lepas sebulan..

2009-03-27T11:22:00.000-07:00

lepas sebulan, aku dah menamatkan konflik dalaman diri aku..and with an open heart, i have accepted the consequences..now i'm back in town..KL..the place i have always wanted to be at..unfortunately, its not the same KL..not anymore..for the past 3 years and 5 months and lost counted days, I have always looked forward to being in KL for the fun and joyous life that it can possibly offer to anybody..tourists, immigrants, residents, locals and everybody..now, its different..turning my life into a different direction is not always an easy job..never opt for one if you're not prepared enuff..

i have to have a new vision and the missions achieving them visions..for this time, i have to think bigger than i used to..currency kecik and heavy competition surrounding me..thus, i have to be extreemly carefull choosing what I want, differentiating what's necessary and what's lust..again, its not easy mate..

Since last post, there were a lotta things happened to me..I went to amsterdam for 2 days..definately the trip that I cant afford to forget..even though my consious mind only functioned for less than 10 hours, I do remember the itsy bitsy parts of em and all..tidur kat airport, the coffee shops, route 36, the museums, nasty ladies and the greeneries..oohh, for all of em, I would only missed the white widow..hahaha..melekat beb..and fendi, aku takkan lupakan ape yang telah terjadi kawan ku..kalau readers sumer nak tau, tanya la fendi..ada link blog dia kat sebelah ni..

then, quite few good weeks later, aku buat lagu kat can..my lovely srikandi..she cried..and alhamdulillah, she loved it, and the good comments..thanks everybody..really, it was very amateur of me and it came from the heart..i have 2 other songs ready to be published..i'll post em in facebook and, youtube will come right after..I do think, i'll be singing once again and this time, I wanna sing what I wanna sing...another flava to add on to your playlist maybe..i just wanna sprinkle in a new variety for the Malaysians..hopefully, Allah will bless me and maybe with HIS bless, this time my hobby is worthwhile..

22nd March, was the toughest day for me to go thru..thanks to my beloved Srikandi ( the one i'll miss for always) Falah, Yus, Rizal, Bagak, Zuha, Nana, Miera, Azilah, Tobek, Razi, Abu, Man, Syaz, and Firhan..kalau aku ada lupa nama nama lain, tolong bagitau and aku akan repost..surely time tu aku teramat sedih and my STML flew in..pada semua rakan-rakan dublin, aku dah anggap sumer cam family..it'll cost me more than a day utk aku letak semua nama..but you know who you are frenz..semoga ALLAH akan bagi korang rezeki yang lebih..

sampai jek aku kat airport KLIA, bahang dia sangat la mencanak-canak..popped out from the arrival gate, I saw Torot and Sutra, waited for me..damn, I was so relieved to see them..at least, nobody had forgotten about me..Sutra was so cute and adorable that she was the princess of all..hahah..Torot, thanks jemput aku kat KLIA..aku sangat menghargaai nye..sorry la aku tak dapat nak calling2 sangat cuz, duk umah menstabilkan diri..walaupun nak dikirakan kita ni baru kenal, tapi alhamdulillah, torot tak pernah menghampkan kawan2nya..ni bukan lambung eh..ni puji jek..

other than that, before balik ari tu, aku gi fotoshoot, gi Killarney holiday farewell party, and gi scrap yard terbesar kat dublin..more about the on the next posts..

till then, penutup this post..aku baru balik makan nasik lemak antarabangsa kat kg baru..ramai gak orang..the tranquil smell of nasik lemak and the flavour of the sambal suddenly were interrupted by a couple that I saw in font of me..pakcik yang adala at the late 40's and a girl..confirm tu awek dia..bukan la nak sebok but then, if it was really his girlfren and cheatin his wife on it, aku akan berusaha tak nak jadik camtu..after what had happened for the past few months, i have learned to appreciate can more and more..InsyaALLAH..

here are some pictures to sum up the mentioned stories in this posts..InsyaALLAH, smentara tak buat pape ni, aku akan cuba update blog everyday..( asek cuba jek kan..hopefully next post is besok)

Istikharah....

2009-02-13T07:28:00.000-08:00

Ya ALLAH..besarnya dugaan aku kali ni..sumber rujukan aku all in all are against it..so aku rasa aku akan terus meminta petunjuk dari ALLAH S.W.T...semoga dia tunjukkan jalan yang mana satu..takutnya nanti aku tak de keja kat KL nanti..kalau ada pon mungkin hidup aku tak macam dulu..working experience??valid ke??sumer ada dalam kepala otak aku..tunjukkan la aku yang hina dina ni..KAU maha lembut dalam memberi rezeki..berikan la aku sesuap rezeki yaALLAH..bantu la aku...

penentuan...

2009-02-12T09:44:00.000-08:00

malam ni, aku akan lakukan satu perkara drastik yang mampu menukar masa depan aku. Semua nya aku akan serahkan pada takdir dan ketentuan ilahi..apa yang DIA nak aku lakukan, aku akan terima qada' dan qadar NYA..life's like a wheel..you gotta spin it to go forward man..I have to do this..I am a man..and as soon as Ive made my decision, nothing can stop me..not even a damn thing man..Dengan keberkatan ALLAH aku akan menghadapinya..Izinkanlah aku................

my past days..

2009-02-08T11:29:00.000-08:00

selama almost a week aku tak update since ada interview kat kilkenny..kampung..well, had a lot of things happened thruout the journey..I'll remember them, each and every piece of them till my last breath..

Previous post had me sayin that i was in a net cafe, flushin out the time before the interview..just as soon as i logged out and paid 2euro, i straight went lookin for a csh machine..found one and withdrew some cash for the cab fares back and forth from the office and back to the town..then, decided to look for a cab..so went around the town (basically a stretch of a lane)..jalan carik cab, then found one..cant believe my eyes when i saw the driver was sleeping..where the hell on earth can you see a taxi driver, takin a nap in the middle of the town, parked his car on a taxi rank/stop..so,taknak kacau cuz,by the look of the time,kinda early..bout half one..so walked again for a taxi..found a sign saying taxi rank..followed the sign and there you go..a taxi rank..wonderful!! no taxi!!!i had discover a fantastic miracle..a taxi rank with no taxi in the middle of the noon,in the middle of the day..so, i walked again and asked a folk for a taxi..he told me to go to the taxi rank and i said i did..told him there was no taxi there..he laughed..god..cant believe this..pulled up my jacket sleeve and it was still half one..i wasnt suspicious of the time at all..so, went around again and found a taxi rank with few of them..thanks..alhamdulillah..took a cab and told him to go to the IDA business and technology park.driver said should be a couple of mins..heard the news on the radio..unemployment rate, 9.2%..gile ape???camne aku nak carik keja..takpela tawakkal je..

during the taxi ride, i received a phone call from the interviewer..she was askin me a question twice..it was"are you gonna be a bit delayed?" i said "no, im on my way" cuz lookin at my watch its half one..then i checked the time on my cell..damn!! IT WAS 7MINS PAST 2P.M...shit..my watch wasnt working!!!!!!!!!i changed the time but forgot to press the needle back in..what am i supposed to do..2mins later,i was in front of the office..god..10past..menggelabah cam orang giler cari pintu masuk then realized yang aku tak pakai tie lagi..even quicker than the speed of light,the tie was wrapped nicely on my neck..shoot! 12 past..im gonna be in big trouble..im doomed!!! tried buzzing the bell on the door and nobody picked up to open it..damn!! time's flyin bro!! then came a guy for smoke opened up the door, i ran up the stairs lookin for the office..again!!nobody at the reception..what a day..few mins later,the same guy who went for the smoke said, ooh,the door wasnt locked..shoot me now!!! walked to the office, in front of the fron desk, at 25past 2..i am dead..couple of people asked me if i was alrite and i said the same thing..was there for an interview..sharply at 32past, i was in front of the 2ladies..interviewer..shoot..had it went good and all but dont think time they would compromised my delay..then it went for 30mins..soon as i was done, got a taxi, went straight to the rail station and headed back to dublin..crazy aint it..

from there i felt that ALLAH wont let me be in Kilkenny..first, missed the early bus..second,town was gosted!!absolute hillarious for the richest country in the world to have a town that even Port Dickson has a lot more to offer in terms of economy and social life..taxi rank with no taxi..ultimately, watch wasnt working..small thing that turned every thing upside down..dugaan ALLAH..dia maha besar..maha penentu segalanya..kita hanya mampu merancang dan dia yang tentukan..

later that evening, helped rizal sent syuks car back to Beumont..and next day had another interview with internet based short term financing company..it went quite smooth but, I think i got cought of lying bout certain things..mungkin ALLAH nak tunjuk lagi sekali, jangan menipu or jangan goreng sangat..Damien the interviewer told me that he would call in the next couple of days..so, mana tahu kalau ada rezeki aku..i might stay here and might not..

friends, when I started blogging, I started thinking..what to write and what to say..how do we keep everybody happy and how do we make sure that people around us are well updated on what we do..just to be on the track though..becuz, what we potray is who we are..we lie, a liar we are..yes pekung ni untuk semua orang tahu yang aku ni dulu kuat goreng,kencing,and perhaps tipu is the word..started from trying to cover my ass, pickin up on girls, to standing up so that people notice and know me..that is over for me..OVER..my pledge - I WONT do all that no more..i am a new guy for 2009..no more..so my old friends, there were some things..not many of them, that i have made up..some got kantoi and some i presume, is still alive..I AM SORRY and this is my word as a man, NO MORE of them..insyaALLAH..forgive me, i was just a kid..i need second chance..forgive me..(nothin on this blog is a bull..so readers, youre safe)

enuff on that..friday was one of the best day in my life..we went parking lot pimpin at jap cars.ie..lotsa japanese imports..tuners,touring..but,no signs of R34 nismo or GTR or GTT..maybe a GT..but it was OK..so, enjoy some PICs from the parking lot..and some shots taken around town..enjoy!!

kampung...

2009-02-04T05:24:00.000-08:00

skang ni aku kat kilkenny..tgh ada interview dekat satu company yang provide visa untuk migrates dgn working holiday..tempat ni kampung sket..ada lagi setengah jam nak interview..tempat cam susah nak dapat teksi..tapi takpr aku tunggu..sewa rumah kat sini murah tapi kampung sangat..macam takder kedai makanan halal je..mungkin ada tapi aku tak explore lagi..so aku nak try my best for this interview..to all the readers, tolong la doakan aku..ya-ALLAH..kalau kerja ni adalah yang terbaik untuk agamaku, untuk keluarga dan untuk aku, kau dekatkanlah aku padanya dan kau berikanlah keberkatan padanya..insya-ALLAH..aku akan cuba..

janji..azam..harapan..and how to keep them alive...

2009-02-01T15:50:00.000-08:00

salam..wuts poppin readers..how ya leavin..hope ya'll are well..insyaALLAH..since the last thread, ive been doin a lot of thinkin..but still couldnt find the answers to my questions..hopefully while im typin out all the Q's, Ill get the answers..insyaALLAH..

on this post, aku dah janji aku nak letak azam tahun baru..i know it took me quite a while..but you know,better late than never..

azam tahun baru aku ialah untuk fikirkan masa depan aku,keluargaku,agamaku,bangsaku dan negaraku.. azam tahun baru aku ialah untuk tambah setahun lagi pengalaman menjadi seorang professional dan bergerak terus untuk menjadi seorang ahli koprat satu hari nanti.. azam tahun baru aku ialah untuk terus belajar ACCA dan untuk sekurang-kurangnya lulus 2 kertas.. azam tahun baru aku ialah untuk befikir sebelum bercakap.. azam tahun baru aku ialah untuk jaga hati dan perasaan orang lain dan tidak menyakiti keluargaku, rakan-rakanku, tuhanku, dan bangsaku.. azam tahun baru aku ialah untuk tidak lagi menjadik mat jenin, berangan dan terus berangan - aku akan cuba untuk hidup dalam realiti dan bukan fantasi.. azam tahun baru aku ialah untuk tak lari dari masalah dan terus pandang ke depan.. azam tahun baru aku ialah untuk berfikir, dan terus berfikir, dan terus berfikir, dan terus berfikir.. azam tahun baru aku ialah untuk kotakan segala janji aku dan aku nak "walk the talk".. azam tahun baru aku ialah untuk kahwin pada hujung tahun ini.. azam tahun baru aku ialah untuk lebih taat, tunduk, dan lebih ingat pada ALLAH s.w.t. azam tahun baru aku ialah untuk ada pegangan hidup dan ada perinsip serta matlamat hidup.. akhir skali, azam tahun baru aku ialah untuk jadi manusia yang lebih baik.. - amin..

talkin about perinsip dan matlamat hidup..have any of you think about who you really are and what you really want in life..honestly, i have but the answer seems to be influenced by the life im living at that time and my level of confidence at that time..untill now, I am still clueless about who I really am and what I really want in my life..

rationally, who would say no to a nice car, big house and a happy family - happiness..trully, everyone in this world will get a glimpse of it..its just a matter of realising and how you justify them..i am not writing all these to show how weak i am or how good i am handling things around me or maybe just to commit myself into blogging and to say what i have to say..no..its just how i talk to myself rationally, and hopefully to motivate myself to be a better man..right now i am indeed very week and fragile to whats gonna happen to me in 4 weeks time..where am i gon be? I dont know..what am i gon do? i dunno..but yet, i do have my plans..

right now all i want is just a job, so that i can get married, maybe to aid my brother on his studies, bring ma and abah touring around europe and to have my dream car..skyline R34..how do i do it? one job..for just a job, I'll get my way to the prizes..I'll call myself a winner if i get a job..regardless of how my ACCA is, I'll get all that..ACCA can wait..

"WANT"..the biggest subject matter and the most hazardous compulsion..do i want it for the best of myself? only god knows..life's a bitch..hate it, you'll fall..love it, you'll cry..bcuz things come and go..and again, confusion leads my mind and thinking..i have to find the answers to all this..how do i start? I have a job interview this Thursday..I'll start with preparing myself for it..please pray for me and please dont forget our war heroes in Palestine..

lastly, here are some pictures i took for azilah and bagak..first step untuk outdoor shooting..baru belajar main SLR..well, I'll take it as a good try..cuaca want at its best at that time..tapi ok je la kot..so, azilah, jangan marah kalau gamba sikit and tak cantik sangat..baru mula..huhuhu..

till then, salam..........................................

sesuap nasi dan bekalan masa depan...

2009-01-24T02:19:00.000-08:00

10 mins more im off to work..Putraventure la ape lagi..so called business development manager..well thats the title that i have to carry around along with the albatross..hahaha..nice word eh..

by the way, somebody told me to buzz off with the empty talks..livin local cant be savin lotsa money..ok, imma show ya..how to live..new years resolution is not to talk the talk and walk the talk..guess it should be the same for all of yee guys.. so, i cant be long here, i gtg..next post - new years resolution ( pretty much quite late eh??!!) and maybe some edited pictures.. abis keja nak gi main game!! yahoo!!

by the way, layan la lagu ni..aku tak tau camne nak masuk kan youtube dalam blog..hehehehe...

http://ie.youtube.com/watch?v=64EjuSEXsYg

2nd to none...

2009-01-22T09:50:00.000-08:00

bile sebut 2nd to none, ade 2 benda je yang aku teringat..its either scout masa kat skola 2nd KL..treasure hunt merapek..takpon being the best and nuthin but d best..well, its all up to yourself...define wuts rite and wut suites..haha..

so, since last week, aku tak update satu pon..dok pk every day nak update and maybe nak share story mory ngn all the readerssss...huhuh..ari ni, nuthin much, bangun,makan,tgk keja sket and YM sket ngn adek gua..bersyukur ke hadrat illahi, dia dapat 3.72..aku sangt bangga ngn dia..2.1 degree tuh..aku pon 2.2 jeh..takper la..masa skola dulu, aku ngn kakak aku yang slalu suruh dia blaja..skang dia yang dok depan lead kitorang..ape salah nye.. tak bemakna umur dia muda dia takleh lead..tak salah..

semalam, pon sama gak..bangun,makan,lepak ngn joe,usha movee and lepak umah bagak..pastu, lepak umah bob..duduk main game, dengar lagu, movee and kroh kroh..

days before that?? same old same old..---nape kita tak besyukur dengan ape yang kita ade..sebab kita ni manusia dicipta dengan tiada rasa syukur kah?or maybe as a human being, we love to keep things as subjective to our thots, keepin definitions to ourselves and thus, keepin our heads up hi..aku tak paham..kenapa konsep syukur ni tak abes abes..ok..its the bridge between you and the creator..simple as that..ko nak ngorat awek, ko puji dia,ko gurau ngn dia and ko at times, belai dia..establish the bridge for your mind and body..bila dengan manusia,kita nampak and kita feel..usual contacts..the eyes to the heart..dengan the creator?? tanyalah kepada yang lebih pakar..unexplained things kan..tak perlu juga kita project ourselves as bein gratefull and such tapi belakang, its between me and the TV..kalau nak berdakwah and beriman,biar hanya ALLAH yang tahu..bukan perlu bagitau..nak kuar TV ke..yang menonton,tolong la tonton dengan ilmu..jangan main hadap je ape yang disumbat..when stupidity coincides with non-knowledgeble feedings, you'll become more stupid..jgn la kalau ya habibi tu even tho dia perkataan arab, kita sifatkannye sebagai keislaman..lagu yang berintikan kau kekasihku..dicipta utk anakku yang baru lahir, kau nyanyi dan kau sifatkan dia sebagai ketuhanan??? kau bodoh ke?? kau solat, nak orang tengok..kau jahil ke?

enuff on that..saw this comment on my previous thread..rx7..wah!!!! memang nak ler..tapi cam tak je..by the way,thanks to all readersss...again..hahaha...

rx7!! kuasa rotary yang sangat besar!!the magic engine..cam air force one ah..the magic sneaker!! hopefully aku dapat both of them at the same time one day..

as to conclude, ape yang aku tules ni takder kena mengena ngn sape2 or mana2 pehak..yang tertelan tu,simpan je la..sorry if it hurts and be prepared for the next feed..hahaha..ada sket la gamba2 ni..usha le nanti..huhuhu..a'kum-

Garisan permulaan....

2009-01-13T04:51:00.000-08:00

Since I was a kid, i always thought that havin a diary is some kinda cool..well, after (roughly 15years) a while, manage to have my own..Alhamdulillah...(its not that hard really..time consuming..)

so, for a kick start as of the first post, name is Fuad Razlan Abd Azri...KL boy..currently in Dublin "ThE FrEEzing HeLL"--That's what i call this place...most of you who maybe accidentally have found this blog, praise the lord, Alhamdulillah again..hopefully, you'll stay with me and I'll try to update this blog as frequent as I can...

I presume i need no introduction bout myself anymore..for more of basic on me, you can find me on facebook,myspace,and friendster... Plus, i used to be quite conspicuous and hopefully, this is not the arena of fame anymore..just for me to express my opinions, attitude, conception and appraisals...InsyaAllah..

At the moment, I am trying to look for a job.. a job that can provide me dinner, feed my appetite to live, and to InsyaAllah, kawen..yes, after a little while and plenty of thinking, i decided that i wanna get married..I know, there will be what you call the catch-22's, obstacles, and bumps along the road ahead of me but, with the help of ALLAH, i'll be there..

Its not that easy to get a job in Ireland or perhaps everywhere..as ya'll know, the world's current economic health is un-permissible for non-opportunist like me..resulting to that, i am now, stressfull, demotivated and keep on having dreamy thoughts of being rich and wealthy..macam mak slalu kata-rugilah orang yang camtu..takder prinsip.. rindu mak..sob sob..

For me nak motivate diri senang je,open up mozilla and type in 3 words..skyline,integra,celica..3 favourite cars..haha..yes!!that's how i keep my eyes on the prize..well, like my baby always said- walk the talk..im trying hard..well,as we all know, not easy...

dah terdetik dalam hati ni yang aku rasa aku kena balik for good..yang pastinya, i have a few more weeks before VISA aku mati..precisely 6 weeks and 2days from now..what can I do? nothing except for try harder looking for jobs..as i mentioned before,economy..blame it on the economy..at this point of time, no matter how good my english is, how colurfull my CV is and which medium I use..it falls back to 2 questions..where are you from and do you need a visa..haha..high risk high return..tu yang making me think aku akan kena balik ni..aku takkan mintak duit nak hutang sesapa lagi..i think its already time for me to go home..god is granting my wishes..my long wishes..after 3 somewhat years..aku akan balik dengan segulung ijazah, 400 ringgit dan hati yang tak puas.. i have been asking my self this past few days..betol ke aku nak balik or its just the conflicting side of me that keeps on afflicting and annoying me..YaALLAH, kau tunjuk kan aku jalan yang terbaik dan terhebat untuk aku lalui..ALLAH..kalau aku balik,akan ada lagi ke that happiness I had in December? It will only be somewhat serious,frustrating and burdening era for me..tapi takper..where am I is not the question..right now, my aim is to get married,beli umah and beli keta..maybe some dunks,lenses,and new ipod along the side will be a bonus..huhuh...sumer tu bole je nak beli..tapi takyah makan la...hahaha

taktau la..aku rasa,dari aku banyak bepikir, baik aku carik keja..and focus..ACCA? maybe i have to say good bye to you..hahaha..sori ma!!

so dalam bosan-bosan carik keja ni, ada la sket gamba2 saje je...tgh bosan...huhuhu...